So here I am applying to study Arabic in Egypt this summer. My life is kinda funny. I'm taking four classes this semester: Intermediate Arabic, part 2, psychology of advertising, concepts in color, and a Creative Writing workshop. The lightest schedule of my life. Let's hope that I use my free time with wisdom.
I'm going to a Sex Toy party on Saturday. LOL. Should be interesting...and I'm sure, fun. See, Hampton wimmen can totally be sex positive and free and shit. Shit. Sheeeit.
I'm 21 years old and it's crazy cuz I know I'm young feeling how much I've grown in the past few years makes me feel...well, old. Even though I'm not. I used to have a friend-a best friend-who I grew apart from kinda without warning who I totally thought was gonna be in my life in a substantial way for the long haul. I met her my freshman year. She was cool beyond all measures of cool. But somehow our talking grew dismal at the beginning of my junior year, and then became a hi-bye status situation by the end of that year. Friendships...relationships in general...they often don't play out the way you expect them too. But they always teach you a lesson about yourself, or the other person, or the world. And I always try to say a prayer, send a thank you to the spirit world for every lesson it sends my way in the form of a person that I love or like or can't staaaand. Because every person, every encounter you have with another soul imprints you in some way. Affects your destiny, your path in some way. And I'm trying to be head ova heals orgasmically in LOVE with my path, even when it's bumpy, or senseless, or depressing, or changes course at an unexpected point. So yea, I dun quite know at what point our paths diverged, but I know that I'll always be psychically imprinted by the marks created when they met. When our friendship made sense, it totally sustained me, and I totally thank her for being such an important part of my life at that point on my path. I wish her joy and peace in her life on all levels possible. I also thank the people who have currently met me on my path, merging and separating from me, teaching me things I might not know if it weren't for our unions. There are folks who I hope will be with me for a long time, whose paths I hope to be in sync with for a great stretch. But only spirit can tell the nature and purpose and direction and duration of any union. And there are of course folks who I consistently butt heads with, who I wish would just get offff my damn path but refuse to leave! Cuz I have things lesson to learn from those unions, too. And then there are those who I'm just puzzled by, or who I think I have no use for. But I submit (to...myself, lol) that anytime I come in contact with someone else's orbit/energy field, my own is changed in some way. My own gets a fuller understanding of itself. Every encounter has a place and a purpose, even those I do not quite notice or understand. Every thing has reason. And it always works two ways...I work on others even as they work on me. And the direction of any organism while it lives is always growth, and so even when growth hurts so much you wish you could die, you know it is happening to you because you are alive and aren't dying anytime soon. Because there is still much to learn.
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