Sufism?

is that my next step?

Did I tell you that I wasn't atheist any more? I'm not sure I ever really was, 100%. I just conceptualize god (the Creator) differently from what tends to be mainstream. Hierarchy is hard for me to get down with, so it's hard to me to view god as something separate from me that's up in the sky, ruling me. I'd rather believe that I am somehow in partnership with the divine.

Being an atheist was fun while it lasted. Just wasn't sustainable, in the end. I feel much better now that I pray again. But I'm totally glad I let myself take the route I needed to take to get to the place that I needed to be.

Side note: I'm getting old. I've realized. I'm like, almost a grown-up.

I'm recuperating from a conference that I helped to plan. I have 1000 emails to write. But I have to finish my 15 page paper, first. I'm tryna get back on my A game.

Studying Sufism will allow me to reconnect with Islam, but in a way that is easiest for me to access. I think I'd enjoy that.

I'm learning to totally love myself, all the way.

Rumi:

-Everything in the universe is a pitcher brimming with wisdom and beauty.
-If you are irritated by every rub, how will you be polished?
-There is no worse sickness for the soul, o you who are proud, than this pretense of perfection.